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what i wouldn't do for money...

2003-08-03

i don't quite know how to feel. should i be excited? i know the people at the hotel i'll start working at tomorrow are nice. at least they were when i went to visit them. but what if working there will suck? i'll be there much longer than i was at the previous place. also, the woman who showed me around on wednesday showed me my desk and it's in a room with a guy who wasn't there. so, i don't even know who i'll be working with for the majority of my time there. but on the other hand, practical work is always better than school. even problems with it seem so much more real than any of the trouble we have at school. i feel silly for saying i don't like this and that teacher or my class mates suck.
so i think i'll decide to be happy and excited. the only thing that actually really scares me is answering phone calls. i suck at that. i don't even like private telephoning too much. but when i have to answer business calls i get all excited, forget most of the things i should say (i.e. my name) and then i kind of irritate myself so much and get so nervous that i'm so busy reminding myself to listen carefully that i end up not listening at all and missing most of the things which is embarrassing. i even hate ordering food on the phone because i always end up babbling stupid things and i can never think straight and the slightest things can send me off into another coma.
yeah, that's me and my stupid little paranoias.

the time at our BBi sucked royally. when we arrived our group leader started the whole day by calling us for a little group meeting which wasn't actually a group meeting because from all three groups only about 15 people were there and the others were already on holidays. so we kind of formed a group out of ourselves.
anyway, she started this meeting by telling us there were no news. and then we talked a little and then she came up with all the not-new news. first of all, our company canteen is closed which means no breakfast and no lunch which wouldn't be too bad but they could have told us a little earlier because no one had any food with them. then we were told that we're not allowed to use the kitchen anymore, our lunch break is 10 minutes shorter now which means mcdonald's isn't an option, either, and the microwave in our room (which we paid for) can't be used by us, anymore, either. i'm sorry, but to me this sounds pretty much like we're not welcome there anymore. luckily, we won't have to spend any more time there except from september when we'll show the new apprentices around.

this apprenticeship is starting to get worse and worse. annette and i were seriously thinking about looking for something new. there are companies which will employ you at the same point where you stopped the previous apprenticeship, if you can give a good reason why you couldn't go on. and the fact that by now we have no rights anymore is a good reason. it's not only about the food-problem. we were also told that the foreign exchange-thing which i wanted to apply for now doesn't allow us to be sent to england or ireland or the usa but only canada. toronto, to be precise. now, who wants to go to canada, for fuck's sake? no offence to canadians, but guys, if you didn't live there...would it really be your desired destination for an exchange? so i didn't apply after all.

ok, i have to have a little rant about our neighbours again. if you can't hear that anymore, please stop reading here. thanks for reading this entry up to this point and have a nice day.

so...you know, i really don't care if people have little fights. i know things can get slightly out of hand at times. i know i'm not necessarily a quiet person when i'm angry, either...
but opening all the windows and screaming out of them at 2 fucking am is not funny. not at all, actually. last night, i really thought i was in hell. i had just gone to bed and started reading my harry potter (yes, i'm a slow reader but i wasn't in the mood, lately), when the noise started. what amazed me, though, was that she still seems to think someone out there cares when she's screaming for help. she doesn't seem to realise that everyone's so annoyed by now that they'd probably even help him killing her.
so, after about an hour we called the police because they just wouldn't stop. i think i can honestly say i don't care if they kill each other but i don't necessarily want to hear it. the police clearly doesn't really care anymore, either, because they needed about half an hour to get here and even if you drive slowly it takes only about 10 minutes by car.
so, they went up there and, after about 15 minutes, left again. and guess what? they weren't gone for five minutes when the evil neighbours from hell just continued. as if nothing had happened. if i knew someone had called the cops because i was being so noisy i wouldn't even be able to make any noise again for at least a week because i'd be so embarrassed. and they just went on! how fucking stupid.
this also means i am not a very happy bunny today because i didn't get too much sleep. i can't sleep with the window closed but our next-door neighbours seem to think the little space in front of our garages makes a good playground for their kids. unfortunately, this space is also almost directly beneath my window. and the kids really must have come from hell. ok, children are noisy at times. but they're really exceptional little sources of noise. they come out the door and immediately start screaming. i watched them and sometimes they even only sit around and scream. without really having any sort of game they're playing. geez.
and, yes, they woke me up this morning. at around 11.30am which is very early when you didn't fall asleep until after 4.

but the good news are that i am working on some kind of site project with mariam. we want to start our own diary layout site. yes, i know, i have deep-obsession with maja but that is focusing on a broad range of things and mariam and i want something that's only about layouts.

sooo...thanks to the lovely people on the AFI board i got a funky davey sim and i think i'll go make it a rockstar now...

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