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emotional crap
2002-07-22
i've done the most stupid thing - i've been on my "friends" tour before writing my own entry for today. ("friends" tour means going through the list on my friends page to read people's new entries and all) that usually makes me feel all creative but at the same time makes the entry end up a copy of other people's style and ideas. which sucks. i'll try to just write whatever comes into my head right now. which won't be much because i'm tired and don't have anything deep to say right now. (see? i just ended two sentences with the same two words)
maja and i went to see "men in black II" today. it's a good movie. kinda on the same level with the first one which is a really rare thing - most second parts are crap and disappointing.
gawd, sabrina's hamsters are sooo noisy. and they're strange. they eat and drink so much. my hoschis don't even eat 1/3 of that. they need to be fed twice a day. the hoschis sometimes don't need fresh food for 3 or more days. and if i didn't refresh their water because of health reasons, i wouldn't have to give him some new for two weeks or so. that's really weird because not only are they the same breed but sabrina's pregnant hamster girl is also a sister of my hoschis. oh, and my darlings are hardly ever noisy. they drink very quietly, hardly ever fool around in their cage, or weep or anything. sabrina's bunch is ALWAYS weeping or biting the gitter (does that exist in english?) or doing whatever. they really annoy me by now. i don't want to take care of them anyway. sabrina is one of my best friends and i love her dearly and i would NEVER let her hamsters die or anything but they are so noisy. :( i won't to get a full night of sleep. but she won't be back before friday. *whimpers*
so...ok...uhm, i had a dream of placebo last night. that means i have to go to bed now to see if it'll continue or maybe there'll be a sequel or a new cebo dream or whatever. nite!
it was a nice day, too. at least, i think so. to be honest...i don't really know what maja thinks because i'm so crap at real life social life and all. well, i know superficial stuff like she liked the movie and all. i'm just so weird. i never really ask any questions or tell anyone what i really think. emotion-wise, anyway. i really like having her around, it's good to actually not make plans but do have people here to go out with and do things with. i don't think people know i like having them around, tho. i noticed it with mariam and i am noticing it with maja, again. they all think they annoy me but they don't. it's true, i like being alone but that's because i'm used to it and suddenly not being along but having someone here 24/7 is a bit like a shock treatment. now, that sounds silly but it is what it feels like. actually, i didn't want to write anything "deep" like that. i just noticed how fucked up i really am because maja is in the living room and i am here and we're talking through e-mail. well, it's not as bad as it sounds because it's not like we had an argument and separated because of that. we were both (i think?) preparing to go to bed and this entry is just like...reading a book before going to sleep. and she sleeps in the living room, so that's the reason why we're apart now. but it's still kinda sick in a way and definitely something people would shake their heads at if someone talked about it on a talkshow.
anyway, enough of that. i don't want to talk myself into trouble again because i know that sleepiness makes me over-emotional about everything and it'll be over tomorrow and i'd feel all silly then.
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