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~::*::~reality strikes again~::*::~
2002-04-20
yey. i got another job interview on mondaaayyy!
stay beautiful!
but this time, i'm just gonna go like 'fuck it' and don't expect anything. the guy sounded very very nice on the phone, though. the job sounds good, too. ah well, we'll see. the interview's kinda late, though. 5.30pm. that means i can't even go home from school earlier. damn.
i'm going out toniiiiight. *bounce bounce* sabrina and i are going to the movies. we don't exactly know what film we wanna see, though. but i'm having a bit of a life and that's the important fact about it. originally, we wanted to go to a club but then, couldn't agree on which one because of different tastes and stuff. i'm not into dancing and dance music and she's not into rock and alternative. so, we ended up choosing the movies which is great, too. gives us a lot of time to discuss jenny and her weirdo-ness. *laughs* not nice but boy, is she pissing us off. she's noticed how we mainly ignore her and how she annoys us, by now. so, she's sticking to out butts when we're alone and completely ignores us and pretends not to know us when other people are there. well, she doesn't know that the other people have told us how they don't like her, yet. what can i say? she's just a complete dumbass and basically everyone i know hates her. maybe, she should think about her attitude and the way she treats people. ok, most people in my class should. lately, we've been ripping each other apart. it's just like...they don't like sabrina and me because we're good students AND we chose to ignore them because...well, we just don't have anything in common. so, whenever we open out mouths, they give a bitchy comment. which pisses me off. so, i asked if it was possible to have a normal discussion with a normal tone in our voices and what did i get? a rather bitchy 'oh, some people here are so very mature' BLOODY FUCKING HELL, YES!!! 
from what i hear from them and what they do and how they treat us and each other, i am a lote more mature than them. but they're putting themselves into that role and i don't wanna be blamed for it, dammit.
errhem, yes, i know i am living up to my drama queen image here but it's just annoying me so much. it's quite exhausting to spend between 5 and 8 hours a day with about 7 people who completely dislike you and don't even try to hide it, at all. school's exhausting enough, already. especially, at the moment because our class teacher's always ranting about how close the finals are and how hard we have to work and he's packing the work of 3 days into one lesson or so. i really don't need all that bitching and arguing, now. it mainly annoys me because i'm not interested in fighting with them, at all. i don't care. i ignore them. i have my own life. and they don't know anything about me. they don't know what i like or do. they only know that i like placebo and hello kitty and seem to think that's all. which annoys me. it's not all, dammit. but i don't think i have to prove anything to them. they should just stop annoying me and sticking their nose into things which are none of their business.
yesterday, on the phone, i told sabrina about my depression and stuff. i think she understood it and she reacted really cool. i know she's great and all but i really expected her back off or something. ok, it's not such a big deal but still. see, if you meet me and see me around other people and all, you just won't guess that i'm like that. i'm pretty good at hiding such bad feelings. self-defence, you know? so, i thought she'd be shocked or something. but she wasn't. 
gawd, i'm so tired. i wish, i could sleep a bit before going out. but i have to watch DC and malcolm in the middle. yeah yeah, really tight schedule. hehe. poor me.
but i'm getting new window shades, today which is cooool because my old one has been broken for aaaaggess. hehe.
anyway, i'm off, now. gotta watch DC. though, i'm tempted to rather watch my uncle getting a stroke from the power line while trying to exchange the light switches. 
~::*::~liebling~::*::~
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