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question to myself
2005-02-13
what the hell am i doing here? why am i constantly online when i'm not doing anything? all i do all day long is alternate between refreshing all the message boards i'm registered at every 5 seconds and playing sims. i hardly ever talk to anyone on my buddy list because half of it is away/busy/offline and i don't even want to talk to the rest. on the message boards, i don't participate in any conversations, either. or hardly ever do. that's because i don't know most of the people there and don't care what they've done today. when i read any threads, i either feel left out or bored by it all. so what the hell am i doing here? and why can't i even think of anything else i could do? i know people think there's something like "i could [insert productive activity here], but i think i'll rather stay here and stare at the screen". but it's not at all like that. i simply don't know what else to do. of course, i could call some friends in my area but then i wouldn't know what to do with them. what do NORMAL people do? where do they go and what do they do there, dammit? and where do they get the money from to do it all?
admittedly, i have been out today. i went grocery shopping and to the post office. and yeah, i am still not fully recovered so i can use that as an excuse for a few more days.
by the way, sending a letter to any country outside of the EU costs 1,55�, yet i was told today that no 1,55� stamps exist. what the hell is up with that? i don't believe german people don't want to send letters to countries outside the EU. or maybe the post office woman was just not very well informed. which seems likely because it's not a proper post office but rather a small-ish post desk in the corner of a corner shop. isn't this interesting? and to think that pondering about this has kept me occupied today.
well, that and WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T SLUT GET MORE POINTS?? that is ridiculous! ok, so their sound was crappy but i blame that on their lack of experience with bigger venues. and i know that most of the other artists are simply "hipper" here at the moment. but 14 or 15 points or whatever they ended up with is totally silly. i swear, it was the stupid kids. how could they bring KIDS on stage with them? who does things like that nowadays? people are annoyed to fuck with kids. what with all the stupid loser kids in all those tv commercials. people want to set them on fire, not put them on stage with a rock band. no offence to all the kid lovers, haha.
apart from that, i'd just like to add how much i hate people who use you when there's nothing else around to amuse them. you know who you are, or maybe you don't and i don't care. the end.
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