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hi?!
2003-08-31
oh god, i really shouldn't be here now. i have to drive maja to the airport tomorrow morning and that means i have to get up very very early. but i just need to get the following things out right now or i'll just explode...
well, the past few days were absolutely crazy.
after a short stop at my place we went to the festival. i was scared as fuck that it would be as bad as pinkpop. and first, it really seemed to be. all entrances seemed to be closed and they led us closer and closer to the middle of nowhere. and then we were stuck in traffic. in a queue that was as long as the way from australia to pakistan. so we just pulled out, turned the car around and drove back. we said that either we'd find a way to get there soon or we'd drive home and live without seeing placebo. in the end i got so pissed off that i stopped in the middle of the road and waved a policeman over. i think he got scared that i'd keep on blocking the traffic so he said he'd let us through to the entrance.
so...in total...i want to apologise to adam for seeming rude, to hunter for maja and me seeming rude and ignorant and to davey for wasting his time and seeming like a complete dumbass. thank you very much.
afterwards we were sitting on the lawn, drinking and waiting for slut's signing, which maja wanted to go to. and all the time first the rasmus and then foo fighters played in the background. both sounded great but i couldn't come up with enough strength to get up. i could have cried and laughed and freaked out right there and then. actually, i'm still shaking so badly when i think of it.
anyway, i really better stop this now or i'll never get to bed. but i'm glad i finally got it all out. *sigh*
ps: if you feel the need to see the pics we took of AFI and slut (only had the cam with me on saturday) go here.
let's start with thursday night/friday morning. most of you probably didn't even notice, nor do you care but AFI won the fucking mtv2 award! whoo! they even beat bloody qotsa! yeeeey for them. that actually made my day and helped to get me through work on friday. the day really sucked with the people there throwing me strange looks all the time that i couldn't really understand. i think they're kind of unhappy about something that's related to me but i don't know what. :/ anyway, so after work i picked maja up. i was at the airport waaaayyy too early, so i sat there with this huge badass smile on my face.
we then had to walk a mile again but somehow everything seemed a lot more positive than it did at pinkpop. maybe because we understood what the people were saying?
we missed most of HIM's set but after they finished some act was performing on the other stage so people went to see it and we got a fab place at the first barrier (not the one at the stage but the first one dividing the crowd but it was still very close and very nice).
placebo's set was absolutely fantastic. once again: i love this band more than my life. really. it's sad but that's how things are. i was so happy and bouncing and singing along and dunno...it was just totally amazing. brian spoke german and even stef did. though i didn't understand much they were saying (english or german) because people around me were so noisy and i think brian was using some wrong expressions so what i heard didn't really make sense. but he tried and it was cute so...bless him! unfortunately, i didn't see much of steve. i only saw him throwing his drumsticks into the crowd as they left the stage. but i got to see bill and xavier properly for the first time. brian even went over to xavier and it looked like they were either kissing or whispering something into each other's ears.
after placebo we went home again and i think now a round of applause is due because we walked back aaalll the way in the dark (hardly any light) and we still went back the next day.
it's hard to say but i think in terms of specialness saturday topped friday. ok, so as i said, placebo rocked more than a bit but i'm used to it and i think i'd bursted out in tears if they ever played an 'average' gig. but saturday...
well, we arrived around 2. this time they had opened another car park from which we had to go by shuttle which went alright. but we had to get off at the camping so we had to walk for miles again. we arrived at the festival grounds around 3.15 and then watched reel big fish play which maja wanted to see. they were ok, considering that it's not my kinda music. quite entertaining, though i didn't see much because i was busy watching those strange drunk punks next to me which were getting dangerously close while jumping around and it didn't seem like they had still enough self-control to make sure not to hurt the people around them.
afterwards, we checked out the meet&greet tent which i had just found out existed and i had to find out AFI were gonna do a signing at 8. can't miss that, eh? maja wanted to go to the caesars' signing at 5.30 but AFI were performing at 5.45 so we split. for the set i was at the same barrier as for placebo but more in the middle. i had a great view of the stage and AFI were amazing. i didn't expect their set to be that great. i have to admit, i still have a lot of work in front of me as far as catching up with their older stuff goes. but it was great. davey'd onstage persona (sp?) really impressed me a lot. something i also noticed was that adam seems to sit much higher behing the drums than steve does. so he can see the crowd and vice versa. i don't know if that has anything to do with the equipment or just steve wanting to hide. i just noticed it. so yeah...unfortunately it seemed to be too early for some people so only some people that were really close to the stage really freaked out. and i have to admit i was too busy examining things and getting used to them as it was 'my first time' and i always like to see what it's like first. but next time i'll definitely freak out.
then there was loads of time to kill. i was actually saying a lot that i was nervous and all but it wasn't aaaalll that bad then. but when we queued up in front of the meet&greet tent i felt how i was really close to collapsing. before AFI, feeder had a signing. they seemed very nice and polite and i almost felt bad for not going over and getting something signed but that would have meant losing my place in the queue. maja left after a while because she thought it was stupid to queue up so early. later, she didn't get to come back to the front, though, so i was left all alone with my nervousness...and two girls from the USA who were very nice but didn't really help to get me back to earth. then i saw some guy coming through the back entrance and i remember thinking he looked cool and then noticing it was adam. and only seconds later davey and hunter entered the place. jade wasn't with them which i noticed straight away but kind of wasn't able to comprehend cos i was shaking so badly.
the security guy let me through with the second load. he actually took his arm away and i didn't get it first but then he motioned for me to go in and rolled his eyes. i remember thinking i couldn't do it, i couldn't possibly walk up to them but then my feet kinda moved and i was standing next to a guy who had just put his shoes in front of hunter who was looking kind of puzzled (if the shoes smiled like they looked, i really really feel sorry for the poor darling). and then i was standing right in front of him and he smiled at me and that was it. all the things i had wanted to say had vanished from my mind and i said the most poetic thing ever: "hi!" *dies* i gave him my ticket, which he signed. and then, without thinking, i said thanks and went over to davey. davey. oh.my.god. i looked at him and didn't even get the "hi" out this time. i just gave him my ticket to sign and nearly collapsed. goddamn, the guy looked so fantastic. so perfect. with that certain bit of glamourous arrogance. damn, he was wearing a black jumper which was far from glamourous and he still managed to look like a god!!! while he was signing my ticket i asked if i could get a pic with him but the girl who took it fucked it up so there's only my mouth and his eye. oh well... i feared i'd drown in my own puddle i moved over to adam who had the same ice-melting smile as hunter. i looked at him all confused and he looked at me even more confused and then i noticed i hadn't given him the ticket to sign, yet. so i handed him the thing and i fear it might have seemed rude, so adam...i'm sorry. i love you. you're great.
then i left the tent thing and found maja. i told her i had to sit down, then stumbled over to the lawn and nearly collapsed. my knees were feeling so weak and my heart was racing.
a few minutes later, she came back after getting her magazine signed by them and we talked a bit and then went over again to see if we could take some more pics. adam was so sweet. he noticed me taking pics and stuck his tongue out. again, i want to apologise to him incase it seemed rude to take pics without asking. *feels bad*
when i turned around to maja i saw she was queuing up AGAIN. i was protesting but then the security man waved us threw again. i wanted ti disappear into the ground when hunter looked at us and smiled so sweetly again. maja told him something and i noticed to late that she told him we 'only' wanted to speak to davey. i would have apologised so much as i think it seems a little rude, though i know what she meant. but still...davey was busy and we could have asked hunter for a pic, too. but i was too confused and whacked out of it to notice anything going on. maja seemed to ask davey for a pic and i only saw them posing so i kind of figured they wanted me to take the pic. it was a bit embarrassing as my cam was in the wrong mode and i had to click it back to photo and then i got also so distracted by davey who, once again, looked like a god and i think i made an ass of myself taking ages to try and take the pic without shaking so badly that it would have come out all blurry.
AFI - the leaving song part I