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hate is so beautiful
2003-06-30
things have gone a little upside-down lately. i've become so insecure. actually, i've become insecure about my online life. a lot. but i feel i've become more secure in RL which is totally twisted because it used to be the other way round and that made much more sense.
jacqueline brought one of those...x-ray (or whatever they're called) picture of her baby today. as much as i still despise her and everything related to her, i have to admit i found it quite cute. ok, you could basically just see a white been in an even bigger black been in a mass of grey-ness and i thought it looked like woodstock - the little yellow bird that hangs out with snoopy all the time. but still, it made us all feel all fuzzy and warm inside. quite scarily, jacqueline even seems to have become a lot more mature now, as well. i mean, for one she came to school today which, i think, no one expected. then she said she's trying to spend as much time at school as possible even though she's feeling sick a lot at the moment and has quite a few appointments with her doctor.
ladies and gentlemen...tomorrow it's exactly 2 weeks til i'll see the man himself - robbie williams! aren't you happy for me? i am happy. very happy indeed. i didn't think i'd still get excited about his show since it's been so often already and it's become a kind of family ritual but now i am all happy and fluffy.
i dunno, i think it's because i got hurt a few times lately. i can't even write about those times here. ok, i could but the people in question might be reading this and that means i'd admit to my weaknesses which makes me even more vulnerable. and that would suck even more. all i can say for now is that i hate hate hate superficial people who sneak into your life, pretending they care about you and your life and problems and opinions and then they drive the dagger right in.
in a way i've been thinking a lot about the whole thing. now that the first excitement and fun has gone i have to admit i can't quite imagine the whole thing, yet.
also, i've completely fallen for afi now which is a bit embarrassing as they've been existing for so long already and i've only just discovered them. i'm so cheap. hehe.
and while we're discussing my fave bands already...my boys will probably be touring here mid-end september cos they'll be in eastern europe at the beginning of september and in france in the middle of october and what's between those two? right! germany! oh, joy!!
afi - the great disappointment