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2002-09-29
i have a little suggestion for my friends/those who want to become one/people who wanna talk to me: before you start talking to me, give me a list of things you want/don't want me to say. that makes things much easier and the conversation will be extremely pleasant for both of us. and if you expect me not to make any random and seemingly rude comments...DON'T MAKE THEM EITHER, FOR FUCKS SAKE!!! i'm just so sick of always being the rude, egoistic, emotionally cold person. just because others are better at playing the poor little victim doesn't mean it's always my fault. and by the way...if i'm such a terrible person, why don't they just stop talking to me? they have the right and the freedom to leave but they don't, so they should shut the fuck up. geez...
ok, i'm done now. as you might have noticed, i needed to vent once again. but apart from certain conversations, the day wasn't all that bad. ok, it was a boring sunday but at least my mood was alright. considering that i am gonna see the manics twice, that's a good reason to be happy. i might have a few problems with that, tho. i talked to maja today and she made a rather *lovely* comment which kinda makes me think she's not too impressed with me coming on saturday and leaving on sunday. so, i might consider not staying with her at all and leaving after the gig. i don't wanna irritate anyone, nor do i wanna get criticized for the things i do to see the manics. dunno if that was actually the intention of her comment or what she meant at all but since obviously some people prefer not to speak their mind when being asked, i can only guess. so, maja, if you're reading this...you could explain it a little. or not. your choice.
on a lighter note...i finally finished reading "everything" today. in a way that's sad because you get so used to getting your bit of manics-history from time to time. but i can also move on to some less biographical books now. so, i started "and the ass saw the angel" by nick cave. so far, it sounds very promising tho it seems like i'll have to pay loads of attention while reading it, so i won't miss important parts.
yey, i can work again tomorrow. oh god, shoot me please. hehe. but i'll get the review for my presentation then. and the day is probably gonna be rather relaxing because there's not much work in store for us. i forgot to annoy annette and bj�rn via sms. actually i had threatened to do that. but now it's too late because we'll meet again in less than 12 hours anyway. damn damn damn. oh well, next weekend will be a 4 days off one and that's the perfect time to piss them off.
anyway, i'll continue making driving tapes now.
i also noticed that i'm really getting into compilation CDs. it's nice to have a good mix of bands. i bought something called "alternative moments" on friday. mainly because i wanted "goodnight lovers" by depeche mode without buying a whole album. the albums full of such *quiet* rock songs and that's nice. it's relaxing and they all sound so pretty. so, now i'm making new cassettes for my car to keep me entertained. i desperately need a holder for them, tho. it annoys me how they always rumble around there. yeah, problems, i know...
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