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bitches, diet coke and gay men
2002-05-29
it's another 'i hate everyone and everything' day. it started with me not being able to find the jeans i wanted to wear. and when i was finally pissed off enough and decided to wear something else, i went into the bathroom to do my make-up and stepped right into a huge puddle of cat-pee. so, i went totally bonkers, grabbed the cat and put him into his own puddle. yeah, it was quite disgusting but the damn thing had to get a lecture. i think he found it pretty gross and sickening but wtf? stepping into cat-pee when you're bare-foot isn't exactly tasty, either.
so yeah...no school for me, anymore. what on earth am i gonna do now? ok, probably the same as usually: nothing. but...dunno...i miss the pressure of having to go to school and being able to complain about it and all. i didn't do much but i could say 'yeah, i'm still at school'. now i can only say 'well, i do nothing'. :( it doesn't even have to do with any (non-existing) future plans. it's just a fact. i've never been good at enjoying free time. mainly because when i have something to do, i'm never really busy, either.
btw, what i haven't written about it, yet is that our teacher had this idea on monday. everyone got an A3 size sheet of paper with their name and then got a comment by everyone else in the class written on their. kinda the same as american/british yearbooks. it was the usual blabla since most of us weren't really close with each other. but my teacher wrote something like 'being different isn't always a bad thing' on mine and i thought it was damn cool. my friends said they find it rude but i think it's not. i like being different. it's a cool statement. :)
oh, and another thing i forgot to write about...when i went out on friday there was this really sweet bartender. and when i saw him it just blew me away because he looked soooo much like stef. o.O he looked exactly like stef in this pic:
then, i drove to school and only got found a parking lot half a mile away from my school. and i mean, i was pretty...annoyed anyway because it was my last day at school and somehow i'm not really happy with that. ok, i've been waiting for this forever but somehow i hate the fact that i don't have any duties like that anymore and i miss my friends and fooling the teachers and all. :( and i kinda hate myself for feeling like that because it hasn't even been one day and i already miss everything. i should be relieved and all.
and then the most annoying thing happened. i went grocery shopping with my mom and a stupid fucking slutty-looking bitch walked up to me and went like 'got a problem?' and this really bitchy tone. the bitch was lucky that my mom was around. otherwise i would have told her were to go. but my mom dragged me away and told me to shut up which i hated her for, too. i mean, i didn't even want to go shopping and i was pissed off at the whole world anyway. all i wanted was to run into the shop, grab some food and run back home again. and i obviously didn't want to be bothered with such crap by a cheap person like that, dammit. man, i am just soooo angry!
eep! i have to come down, now. i really shouldn't freak out like that. *breathes in* *breathes out*
alright, that has to be enough for tonight because i'm completely dehydrated and i have to go down to the car and get a bottle of diet coke out before i get too weak to breathe. *laughs*
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