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2003-11-26


and again i couldn't be bothered to update. sometimes i wonder why i keep this diary. then, however, i remember that i am addicted to it. addicted enough to be a gold member and all.

well, you haven't missed much anyway. i survived the last few days before my days off. which start tomorrow. which is kinda sad because technically i can stay up as long as i want now but i'm already considering going to bed after writing this entry.
i think it's time to say a plain thing now...i hate my job. not because so many bad things happened or something but i figured this out now. i'm just not made for it. and it's so stupid cos i can't just quit now because there's nothing else to do. so i'll just go on and by the end of these three years i'll have this certificate which will tell the world that this is the job i am gonna do forever. i dunno what i was thinking when i signed this contract. ok, probably something like "whoo, money". but what was i thinking when i chose this? yeah, i know..."i don't care". but still...i'm really not made for it. i hate talking on the phone, excel pisses me off, i am not a social person, i am not comfortable around people...i shouldn't be doing this.
i think i've been a bit down lately because i figured this out. ok, i knew before that this wasn't my big dream coming true. but realising that you really despise what you're doing and you've chosen the wrong career is kind of...depressing. i think i'll survive, though. i'll just have to learn to live with the fact that i'll never like my job.

i gave my email to a guy today. ok, that happens all the time. millions of people have my email. but he asked for it cos he's "interested". i am not, though. i only gave it to him because he was so obviously interested and there was another guy who was "fighting" him for me and it felt quite nice so i decided a little fun couldn't hurt. it was only on our company's intranet forum, though. he also asked if i'd like to go out with him some time. i don't know if i will do that, yet. guess not. i'm just really not interested. we have nothing in common and...dunno. he seems nice but just not like someone i'd fancy. who knows...maybe i'll give it a go out of boredom. he lives quite a few miles away which means we can only meet on a weekend. that again means i'll have at least over a week to decide as this weekend will be busy enough.

whoo, the rasmus on friday. susie and maja both said it was great (well, they've been to two different gigs) and susie also said the support act rocked (dare i use the word "obsessed" *sheepish grin*). i bet it will be fun...going with annette and all. i guess i won't even get to pay much attention to the bands with her around and all.

damn, my new mobile hasn't arrived, yet. i can't wait. it's been over a week since i ordered it and it and i'm getting really impatient. i waaant it.
BUT i got my AFI van's <3 and that crappy tribute to AFI album. yes, i knew it was crappy. i ordered it for the same reason i keep purchasing singles even if they have shitty remix b-sides: just to have it.

oh, you know what i hate? people who sneak you in between two other things they're doing. like...watching their fave tv show and...making a phone call or going out or something. there's 10 minutes of spare time and they decide they can use you to kill that time. doesn't that suck? i mean...what do people think they're doing? do they call the exchange of two sentences a conversation? geez. i'm so sick of those people coming online, saying hi and disappearing again. do not message me when you're too busy, ok? you're only wasting space on my screen and you're most probably interrupting really important things and the two sentences you are able to fit in most probably aren't even anywhere near important. i miss the time when people had to use a simple cable modem to get online and connecting took about half an hour because you had to try again and again and all. back then people didn't even bother trying when they had so little time. ah, good old times.

anyway, i'll end this pointless rant here now. not because i can't go on (believe me, i could) but because i think i'll really go to bed now.


daft punk - one more time



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