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i'm aliiiiive! aaaahahahaaa!
2004-09-26
yes, i do feel bad for neglecting this diary for so long. i've had things to do, though.
admittedly, those "things" were mainly related to the sims. i seriously can't stop playing it. i start playing when i get home and i don't stop before i go to bed. with few interruptions. it's getting better now, though. today i even managed to go shopping and write the first appliance letter. and on monday, it goes straight off to ikea. yes, i'm applying for a job with ikea. i can't help it, it sounds damn great.
i really like myself today. i don't even know why. i just liked my clothes, my make-up...it scares me because this never happens. i can usually barely keep myself from scratching my own eyes out because i hate myself so much.
and now for the gross part: i think i'm bleeding to death. no, actually i'm quite sure. see, i don't exactly get my period regularly. in fact, when i get twice a year, i call it often. yeah, i know, another thing i should probably take care of soon. but it doesn't really bother me. i used to be on the pill because of that but i stopped taking it when i was ill for a few months and couldn't keep anything inside anyway. and i never went to get it again, either. yeah, this also means i haven't seen a gynaecologist(sp?) in ages. because i *know* she'd tell me to get on the pill again and blah.
there you go...i've run out of things to write about. but at least it's an update. a short one but that will do.
well, yeah, i like everything except for my back which is killing me today. i suppose spending even more time in front of my comp wasn't too healthy. so now my lower back hurts like a mofo. i guess i'll have to buy a better chair some time. (yes, i know i should actually get the fuck away from the comp and occupy myself with something sports-related!!! but getting a better chair is a start...and easier.)
yeah, so, what i was saying is: my period came back to me on wednesday and hasn't stopped since. that's not too long, i know. but it also won't slow down. it just flows and flows and flows. by now, i am seriously thinking about putting a mattress into my panties in order to at least make it a couple of hours without changing. it's like all the babies-to-be(-not) are meeting up during the time i don't get my period and in the end, they'll start this huge wicked mass-suicide and just flood themselves out with loads of blood. it's disgusting and annoying and i just want it to a) stop or b) finally let me bleed to death now.
manic street preachers - life becoming a landslide