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*is in love again*
2002-09-24
this time, it's the girl from the calling's "adrienne" video. i've seen it about a million times by now and i always found her attractive. now, i've developed a serious obsession, tho...
gawd, can't someone just bloody shoot avril lavigne? i mean, ok, maybe don't kill her. just make her listen to her own song for a second. if she took her own lyrics serious, she'd disappear from the music biz (and my life) quite soon. i never actually listened to the lyrics but now i did (for some sick and twisted reason) and i noticed the irony. *shakes head*
uh...i'm actually sick of getting up early already. ok, that's not a surprise. at least it's almost been a month. that's cool. more than i could wish for actually. but today was one of those days that i actually wondered why the hell i'm doing this. maybe because today and tomorrow we only have our first aid course. ok, so probably it can be useful and yadda yadda yadda. but i've already been to such a course a year ago while getting my driving license. and i doubt that i'll remember anything about those courses because we have to sit there for 8 hours and the guy talks and talks...let's us "save a doll's life" and that's it and you basically fall asleep after two hours.
it's definite now: i'm the biggest dork in the world. and i feel like i'm cheating. i have to do a powerpoint presentation about something i like. and i chose the manics...as a lack of *serious* topics. i should be doing this about placebo. the thing's just...the manics' history is more interesting and their reasons to be where they are and all. placebo are more or less making music because that's what they like to do and that's a little 08/15. they're great at it, no doubt, but for such a presentation it's better when you can excite your colleagues (who hardly care anyway) with a little "...and one of their members went missing but his body has never been found" then. yes, probably i should be shot. oh well...
actually, i think i should mention my grandpa in here as i've been arguing with him since last week. but i'm so sick of the whole thing and i don't even wanna think about it anymore. sabrina and i actually seriously thought about moving together in a year or so. together, we could afford a flat and still have enough money to go out and all. she's the only person i could imagine myself living together with, actually. simply because discussing things out with her is easier than with any other person i know. maybe because all other (good) friends know more about me than she does. she knows what i'm like and all but...it's just not too emotional and so far it always felt like we'd get on without that. and that's good. it sounds like it was superficial but it isn't. we're still there for each other when we're down and we talk a lot but neither of us feels the need to know about any backgrounds or something. she's just the easiest person to be around. i can be very bossy when i'm pissed and she's just able to accept things and either leave me alone or agree with me for fuck's sake. and she's fine with that. the only thing that worries me is that she seems to look up to me because i'm a little older. i don't actually feel more mature than her and i don't think i'm a good role model. but she says things like "i know my problems probably seem silly to you because i'm so young..." or "have you been in such a situation when you were my age?" but i'm only 2 years older and i don't feel that i should be the *mommy* giving her advice.
anyway...i'm freezing here, so i'm gonna go and hop into bed and hide there til i'm warm again...
the calling - camino palmero