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2005-09-22


today was great. well, as great as it could be seeing as a few shitty things happened yesterday that i can't forget and that give me a rather weird feeling.

i had the day off and i drove my mum to her work because she needed to hand in some papers and all. she's not allowed to drive, yet, so i went along. we spent ages talking to her co-workers whom i find quite scary. one of them also managed to piss me off because she talked to me on a way too personal level. i can't stand it when people do that. she probably feels like she knows me because my mum tells her stuff about me but we've only ever met twice or so. so i definitely don't need her to judge me or my life or anything. but i stayed quiet and we finally got out of there.

when we got home, there was mail from our london-people who organise trips there every november/december. and yay, we'll join them again this year, which means i'll go there twice in two months. that's something to look forward to.

and now for the bad news. aka the things that happened yesterday. k., my personal little favourite colleague-darling, got fired. apparently, his latest monitoring was rather bad. they simply chucked him out. i was so shocked, i couldn't even say anything. they also did it in a very bad way. they asked him into our team leader's office, told him he was out and then sent him back to work because the big boss still had to decide when k. has his last day. seriously, they could at least do these things under halfway human conditions! i feel so sorry for him. he's 42 now and he has a family to support. i don't even know if his wife is working. and probably, it won't be easy for him to find something new. that is so unfair!
and, of course, i'm also selfishly sad for myself. he was one of the few people keeping me sane there. he is so funny and laid-back. sitting next to him and joking around between calls always cheered me up and helped me find the motivation to make it through the next call. now i only have the other k. left but talking to her makes me feel rather self-destructive because she makes it seem like everything's so easy and i'm the only one to have problems. the more time i spend with her, the more irritating i find her. when she's talking to customers, her voice gets higher and higher until you think your ears will burst along with the windows. and she seems so very very naive and stupid sometimes, yet she's trying to sound all wise. i mean, she looks like some punk rock goddess with loads of tattoos and all but she talks like some britney spears-double. or the things she says could be said by such a person. but she still says them in a way a 16 y.o. rebellious punk girl would talk. for example she'll tell you how annoying it is that her boyfriend still meets his ex and is friends with her but she makes it sound like she's talking about some completely new alternative lifestyle-thing. but i'm sorry, if she was that cool and laid-back, she wouldn't give a fuck or at least be happy that he's fine with his ex. and why exactly do i have to listen to that stuff?!

there, i got myself all worked up again. which is the last thing i need because i'm about to go to bed. i have to get up at 6, then shower and go to work. but at least i'll have some training unit tomorrow and on friday which means less calls and less reason to get all depressive and suicidal. or so i hope. i don't know what the training units are like but being worse than a pissed off customer who recently got another 5 jamster-subscriptions on their bill is hard.


AFI - girl's not grey



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