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cause back in school we are the leaders of it all
2005-07-22
i know, i wrote this about a hundred times by now but this time i really think i'm going to be unemployed soon. yesterday, the team leaders started handing out warnings and a few people got fired already. i think the only reason why i'm not fired yet was that my TL was busy with other things and only got to talk to a few of our team. but i know i'm not gonna make it through the trial period. i'm just not good enough at the job. but they need to have me fired by the middle of august because they need to keep the two week's notice thing. so i'm expecting it anyday now. until yesterday, i still thought i might kind of make it. but now shit is really hitting the fan with the company being up for sale and all. i thought i wouldn't mind but i seriously don't care about the job itself. there's not much for me to miss. but i had just made some serious plans. i wanted to reduce my working hours to 6 a day after the trial period (with the pay rise, i'd earn about as much as i do now), then use the additional free time to finally get a better school degree. and then i wanted to either see if i can go to uni or find a much better job, which would depend on what seemed like a better idea and came up at the time.
but the good news is that despite all this shit, i paid the first part for our november holiday just now. it feels good to spend money on such a good thing. i can't wait. i'm really looking forward to it a lot.
i am going to play sims now. that's easier than making plans for my own life.
now i just know that i'm definitely going to do the school degree thing. i already told my mum that, if things really get bad, i'll spend a few months being unemployed, only concentrating on my education. because i'm sick of those pooey companies making me work for a sad excuse of a wage just to fuck around with me for a while. actually, i'm getting a little paranoid. i HAVE to take up a course. it seems my own thoughts are stalking me now.
first, i got a letter from the institute i first tried getting the school degree with, yesterday. haven't read it, yet, because i know i'll pretty much jump at any offer they want to make me. then i got the news about getting fired soon. and last night, i dreamt i got "back to school" tattooed across my back. i definitely have to do it. i'm just waiting to get the pink slip now so i can see which way is better. either, i'll take evening courses or try it with the old institute.
i also have another plan but i'm not gonna write about it here as i have only come up with it today and i couldn't put too much thought into it, yet. maybe it'll prove to be a crap idea after all.
deftones - back to school