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2004-09-19


yeah, that's right. i'm addicted. to the sims. sad thing. but the new version is so awesome. whenever i stop feeling like playing a game, i just let them do whatever they wanna do and it's like watching tv because the graphics are so awesome and you can just pretend to be watching a movie. i also love how they get older and react to certain things. for example they can get really fat or really fit because you can let them work out (or not). and letting them have kids is awesome because the kids actually grow up and can move out and have their own families. one part i never liked about the sims was that you could let them have kids but that was it. they'd have loads of kids but that was basically the end of the road. now the end of the road is death which might not sound nice but at least it's real and it sort of gives the whole thing a point. which almost leads me to thinking whether it's the same with real life. i wonder how it'd would feel to know that we'll live forever and things will just go on and on. you can get a different job or buy a pet or have more kids but it'll never end. i think i wouldn't like that.

actually, i thought about death a lot lately. not in a suicidal way, just generally. i used to think i'm not afraid of it but i guess that's not true. i'm not even that afraid of my own death. sometimes i wonder how i'll die and whether i'll be stuck in a hospital bed like my grandma, just waiting for death to finally come and that thought scares me a little but generally, i'm fine with that being what will come in the end. i guess i'm even thankful to know that i'll die at some point because it's the only thing i know for sure. what i'm really afraid of, though, is my family or my friends dying. ok, so i've come to terms with the thought of my grandpa probably not being here anymore in 10 years or something. my grandma's death sort of made me think about that and since then, i've grown accustomed to these thoughts. but what about my mum or my close friends? seriously, the thought of them dying makes me want to kill myself, just so i won't be around to experience that which is probably very selfish.
so, due to certain circumstances, this also means i'm pretty worried about maja at the moment.

oh wait. aaaaaaaahhhh! i just noticed AFI appeared at mtv icon for the cure. damn! why didn't i know this? i remember taking part in a competition thingie on msn, thinking it would be decent to be there since the cure are pretty neat and all. but i would have NEVER imagined AFI to show up there. phwoar! i need to go and find out when the bastards show it on tv here...


hunter revenge - how do i forget?



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