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welcome to mount christmas card
2004-12-12
yes, friends, it's true. i'm in some sort of christmas-y mood which made me go out and buy a shitload of christmas cards. everyone i know (and their maid) is gonna get a card this year. i think i spent more money on cards than i spent on most people's presents. i don't even know why but suddenly, writing christmas cards seemed like fun to me. and it still does. other than that, i don't want it to be christmas time, though. or maybe i do, but just because that means i'll have 1,5 weeks off.
last week, i learned that i will have to work in a shop again. until the end of january. i'm pissed but not as much as i should be or thought i would be. in a way, i'm almost looking forward to it. but only because i know that in a shop on a busy shopping mile around christmas time, there HAS to be something to do. the last working periods were shitty because i had nothing to do. no work, no phone ringing, nothing. hopefully, this time will be better. it will make the time pass more quickly, i suppose.
i also got my final report which nearly knocked me off my feet. my average final mark is a 1,9. *gasp* and it was p.e. and religious education which saved my arse because i got a 1 in both. well, and in english but i knew that before. it's quite unbelievable, really. unfortunately, this report hasn't anything to do with the final exams because it's only about the theory (aka school) part. so there's still a chance that i will have to repeat one or more exams. and, of course, there's still the telecommunications final on tuesday and the several practical and oral ones in january. but at least this means that if i fail one of them and i decide not to forget about it all together, i won't have to go to school again because that part is officially finished now. with a satisfying result, if i may add.
i've also written a few more appliances though i vowed not to do that anymore until january. it's probably pointless and a waste of money as i keep getting rejected. probably, i should try something like a temp agency first or maybe a temp job or parttime or something to get some more experiences to share. i really don't know. it's always "yes, this sounds great, but where's your experience?" hello? i'm 22, i'm just about to finish my job training during which i DID work. excuse me but what do you expect? i'm pretty sure that i won't have a job by february. which is both, worrying and relieving. i mean, i want to find a job and earn money and move out and all. but i'd also like to take a break. when i find a job, they'll probably give me a trial period of 6 months in which i won't have a chance to take a longer time off. so i'd very much like to do that now. but i don't dare apply for 1 march because i fear it would look shitty if i wrote that i want to have time off.
i better go pick out clothes for tomorrow now. and then i'll watch that show about real murders. to cheer me up.
it's so confusing and there's no one i could ask. they're all trying to help but they're just driving me insane with their "do it EXACTLY like i did"-stuff and they're so pushy. and in the end, the people whose job it would be to help me (the job agency) seem to be too busy or unwilling to help me. at least, my personal advisor hasn't given me a sign of his existence so far. i was given a name but maybe the lady who gave it to me only made it up?!
placebo - twenty years