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unrequited love or whatever else is bugging my friends

2003-12-08


last night i re-discovered a song i used to love so much. but i kinda forgot about it. and when i listened to it last night, i couldn't believe i had forgotten about it because it describes me so well. it describes how i often hide my anger and any other bad feelings and it also describes my sort of...arrogance towards other people. i'll just post the lyrics for you to see what i mean...

Slut - Universal

We're universal and we're blessed
We're grown up well I must confess
Which makes us better than the rest
We're always happy and amused
We're open-minded while we choose
We're intellectual confused - we're so confused

We're hungry - though we have to eat
We're thirsty - we can find no sleep
We're angry - though we're looking sweet

We stay untouchable and strange
And though we try to make things change
We're far too boneless to arrange
We look so peaceful all the time
And though we're dangerously unkind
We're used to look like we don't mind - like we don't mind

We're nameless - though we have a home
We're painless - and we're all alone
We're aimless - though we have to roam

We're universal
We're universal
We're universal
So universal - and it will always be like this

We stay indifferent and we're blessed
We think we're better than the rest
We're always thoughtful and depressed

We're nameless - though we have a home
We're painless - and we're all alone
We're aimless - though we have to roam

We're universal
We're universal
We're universal
Just universal

i can't believe how well those lyrics describe me. it's like i had written them.

unrequited love sucks. annette met her "online"-lover this weekend and it didn't turn out too well. it sounds stupid and a bit...mean but i kind of thought it would end like this. maybe i'm just too realistic or maybe i'm too negative but i've had my share of such things and internet romances just never work out. well, annette's lover wasn't really an internet-lover but they met on our company's intranet and talked on the phone and all but still...things went too fast and too well. how could it have worked out? things like that just never do. love things never do.
i'm sad for her, though. it all sounded pretty sweet and i was really hoping that i was wrong.
now, however, she is pretty down and i'm worried about her. she's pretending to be all strong but i guess things are pretty tough for her at the moment. i offered that she could call me tomorrow and we could go and do something in case she needs to get out since we both have the day off. actually, i have tons to do tomorrow like pick a parcel up from the post office and do the final christmas shopping and all. but i guess cheering her up is a bit more important.

personally i don't know how i am feeling at the moment. on the one hand, i am pretty happy. i got tickets to go to a gig next week and i'm thinking about going to another one next week and i finally got my new mobile (well, it'll arrive soon) and everything's peachy. but on the other hand i'm just so down and i feel left out of a few things and i just wish i could dig a huge hole in the ground and disappear in it for a few months. sort of like...hibernating or something. i can't stand all the christmas stuff anymore and i still haven't booked train tickets to go to maja and i don't know when i wanna go, either and i hate the thought of having to go on my own because trains just suck and i'm worried about tina because she hasn't been online for ages and there are so many things i want to tell some people but can't find the strength to and everything's just too much at the moment. can't someone just shoot me?
also, i'm waiting for a huge sign to appear out of nowhere which reads "congrats! you've reached the bottom level of bad taste now" because i ordered tickets for me and annette to see westlife in june. yes, i'm sure now there'll be quite a few people who'll want to shoot me.

i think i'll just go to bed and sleep again. i've already slept about 30 hours since friday and i feel the only times i am really doing quite ok is when i'm asleep or at least all locked up by myself without having people around and without talking to anyone...


slut - universal



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