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golden frogger times
2002-06-03
hehe. this is a very late entry. i know you all have been sitting in front of the screen all day, hitting refresh every two seconds waiting impatiently for my next entry. well, here it is.
so, tomorrow will be the day. i decided to finally become a diaryland gold member. supergold, actually. :D you know, i was wondering what i could "waste" my money on and i thought...what better thing than this?! i mean, i'm obsessed with diaryland, anyway. if i don't update for a day, i get nervous. actually, i caught myself doing things only so i could write some extra-cool things about them, here. and even though i sooo don't know how and what for i should use the features i'll get...i hate the fact that some people who maybe don't even update their diaries as regularly as me get them and i don't. sooo...i decided i'd have to have it and now i will. actually, i wanted to sign up, today but then i thought, i have this damn annoying test tomorrow and i'll have to sooo kick my own butt to make me go there and sit there for THREE BLOODY HOURS and calculate boring stuff and answer questions like "which thing is wrong in this group?" with a group of three rings and one triangle below. so, i thought i'll look at this sign-up thing as kinda treat for myself for being such a good little girl and actually pretending that i wanna work for that company. ok, actually i do because we went there on sunday and it's right in the middle between two mcdonald's restaurants and only 10 minutes away from the huge shopping center i spend most of my life at anyway. so, whenever i have trouble with my bos/colleagues i can go and buy a CD or so to vent. ok, so my priorities might be different from those of other people but that doesn't mean they're wrong.
speaking about wrong...some things with some people in my life are going sooo wrong. at some points i think people want to talk about completely different things than me. don't get me wrong. i'm not a bitch who's so full of herself that other people's interests leave me completely unimpressed. it's just...if people are completely obsessed about certain things there's only so much you can take. ok, i'm still not one to send them away (at least, not always) but if they expect me to say something, it gets...tough. i mean, if someone comes to me and says "ooohh...darren hayes here, darren hayes there...and blabla...and star wars...and darren's socks...and darren's lips and blaaa" and all the time i just smile and try to follow even though i have no idea where to look for the point and suddenly they go like "so, what do you think about that?" i get this really loud siren in my head that means something similar to "ERROR! SYSTEM OVERLOAD!" i mean, people, please! i'll gladly listen to your rantings, i'll even try to understand but don't expect me to actually have an opinion about it because in 9 out of 10 cases i won't even know what you're on about. hmm...am i that bad with placebo? i hope not. doh!
but this is getting way too depressing, again. i didn't even want to write such "deep" stuff. though, i bet, some of you mised it already. haven't written an angsty entry for ages.
ps: i can't believe i missed the 1000th visitor. it was at 990 last time i checked and i thought i could happily sleep during the night and be here when it reaches 1000 today but i was wrong. i missed it. :( but i promise we'll party and i'll give a nice price to the 5000th visitor (hey, i need time to plan, k?) for now, this will have to do:
i am endlessly happy because i spent most the the day re-discovering my childhood. see, placebo have set up this new and stylish and ultracool portal site thingie for silver rocket members and OMG, they have online games on the site. (no, i don't care that online games have absolutely NOTHING to do with the band) they have tetris and pacman and this really ground hog game and lots of other games. and one thing called 'ask guru joe' where you have to ask a weird looking cartoon guy "yes or no" questions and he'll answer. i think i have to sue placebo, though, because i feel a kinda addiction coming my wy. i give myself one month and i'll be hopelessly obsessed with that thing and ask guru joe for advice before each decision i make. oh, and i remembered why i always hated tetris and why i 'accidentally' lost the game boy game years ago. i suck at it. i really do. i only get to level 2...if i get lots of good bricks! but i still rock at frogger. and i'm still so-so at pacman. *laughs* man, that brings the good old atari and c64 times back!
the other thing is when people make certain things depend on me. like when every word by me has ten times the power it usually has. or they want me to cheer them up and hold them (hold as in stop them from doing stupid things) apart from the fact that i'm not exactly great at it i'm also not the happiest and healthiest person myself. i'm just not strong enough to keep more than one person (which is myself) happy for at least a few hours a day. it's just hard to tell people that i can't save them, either. :(
man, i'm so annoyed. i was seriously thinking about going to that mtv campus invasion thingie because the one in essen only costs �15 and was supposed to have silverchair, donots, die happy and some other acts. and mtv STILL happily announces that silverchair will be there everyday on telly. but it's quite old news already that silverchair won't tour for quite some time due to the illness of their singer. mtv's like sooo ripping off some people there. especially because silverchair are headliners of the show in essen which probably means that more than half of the people are there to see them. so, i won't be going. ok, i still like the donots even better than silverchair and die happy are cool, too and all but i won't give mtv money so they can organise even more events to rip poor kids off. whoa, i am so politically correct!
*yawns* i have to go to bed now. i have to get up at 10.30am (which is like the middle of the night for me) and i still want to finish reading my harry potter book. in fact, i was already tucked up in bed with my book and my ash CD playing when i decided to come here and write this humble little entry. aww, bless! :) nite!
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